Domingo, 31 de Agosto
Ethel Cain é o pseudônimo de um personagem fictício, criada pela mente de Hayden Silas Andhedönia. Em "Preacher's Daughter", encontramos uma vida inteira de traumas, experiências culturais e batalhas religiosas centradas na personagem de Ethel. É um álbum conceitual que explora temas como amor, sexualidade, violência, religião, família, abuso e como todos eles se relacionam. Ambientado em 1991, detalha a relação difícil e conturbada da protagonista com a religião, seu primeiro amor Willoughby Tucker, sua mãe (Preacher’s Wife), seu pai, e também consigo mesma. De forma linear, conta a história de sua família, seu primeiro amor, sua fuga de casa até o momento de sua morte, aos 21 anos.
"These crosses all over my body / Remind me of who I used to be"
"Jesus can always reject his father / But he cannot escape his mother's blood"
"The fates already fucked me sideways / Swinging by my neck from the family tree / He'll laugh and say: "You know I raised you better than this / Then leave me hanging so they all can laugh at me"
"Say what you want, but say it like you mean it / With your fists for once, a long cold war / With your kids at the front"
"I do what I want, crying in the bleachers / And I said it was fun / I don't need anything from anyone / It's just not my year / But I'm all good out here"
"Jesus, if you're listening let me handle my liquor / And Jesus, if You're there / Why do I feel alone in this room with You?"
"And I still call home that house in Nebraska / Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor"
"These dirt roads are empty / The ones we paved ourselves"
"And it hurts to miss you / But it's worse to know / That I'm the reason / You won't come home"
"You know, I still wait at the edge of town / Praying straight to God that maybe you'll come back around"
"I cry every day, and the bottles make it worse / 'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt"
"I'd hold the gun if you asked me to / But if you love me like you say you do / Would you ask me to?"
"Trouble's always gonna find you baby / But so will I / I'm never gonna leave you baby / Even if you lose what's left of your mind / 'Cause you know I'll be right there beside you / Riding through all these western nights"
"I'm just a child but i'm not above violence / My mama raised me better than that"
"Lay it on me / Tell me a story / About how it ends / Where you're still the good guy / I'll make pretend"
"I thought good guys get to be happy / I'm not happy / I am poison in the water and unhappy / Little girl who need her daddy real bad"
"I was too young to notice / That some types of love could be bad / Praying I'd be like you / Doing all of the things that you do / And I still do"
"I'm tired of you, still tied to me / Too tired to move, too tired to leave"
"You loved your dad and the love he had for your mother, so / You had to get out and go chasin' its sweet call"
"And you say: Hey, do you wanna see the west with me / Cause love's out there and I can't leave it be / And I said: Honey, love's never meant much to me / But I'll come with you if you're sure it's what you need"
"And every small town diner saw our faces at least once or twice / But in these motel rooms, I started to see you differently / Cause for the first time since I was a child, I could see a man who wasn't angry"
"End of the line / We finally reached the edge after all this time / I didn't find my love, but I still made it this far without it"
"And then you turned to me and stared into me deep / And said "Well, maybe not cause look at what I've got / You might not be my love, but, baby, I doubt it"
"Baby, if it feels good / Then it can't be bad / Where I can be immoral / In a stranger's lap"
"And if you hate me / Please don't tell me / Just let the lights bleed / All over me"
"Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee / Promising a big fire, any fire / Saying i'm the one, he's gonna take me / I'm on fire, I'm on fire, I'm on fire"
"Even the iron still fears the rot / Hiding from something I cannot stop"
"What fear a man like you brings upon / A woman like me / Please don't look at me / I can see it in your eyes / He keeps looking at me"
"Blessed be the Daughters of Cain / Bound to suffering eternal through the sins of their fathers / Commited long before their conception / Blessed be their whore mothers"
"Blessed be the children, each and every one come to know their god thorugh some senseless act of violence / Blessed be you, girl, promised to me by a man who can only feel hatred and contempt towards you"
"What I wouldn't give to be in Church this Sunday / Listening to the choir, so heartfelt, all singing "
"God loves you, but not enough to save you / So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself"
"We all know how it goes / The more it hurts, the less it shows / But I still feel like they all know, and that's why I can never go back home"
"But I always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me / So I just prayed and I keep praying and praying and praying"
"Singing if it's meant to be then it'll be / I forgive it all as it comes back to me (Back to me)"
“In your basement, I grow cold / Thinking back to what I was always told / Don’t talk to strangers or you might fall in love”
“Freezer bride, your sweet divine / You devour like smoked bovine hide”
“We’ll make love in your attic all night / Euphoric in some strange delight”
“You’re so handsome when I’m all over your mouth”